thorn between US...

quarelled with my mum yesterday...
no i should say...
not quarell just like argue...
but she refuse to talk to me...

Story starts like this...
yesterday we went gurney...
and then after she fetch us..
we went having some food for dinner...
ok...
then I was asking her '' mummy how to remove those oily acne from face''
then you guess what she say...
she straight away shoot me like this...
'' ask your daddy..he has a so big cosmetic factory as his backup''
then i feel so uncomfortable and I say
'' if you dunno how to answer, can you just tell me you dunno, why you have to answer me like that?''
then she say..
'' ohh...your mood good then people cannot say things that you don't like la''
then i was i like..
oh my god, did i say anything wrong...
I know that time i'm not speaking in a good mannered, but i'm not shouting at her...
I surely know my daddy is having an affair with a girl who has a really big cosmetic factory..
but why in this moment when everyone is in good mood...
mummy have to say something like this??
babes do u guys understand the feeling of letting your mum to use your dad to make u feel so faceless??

Ok next...when we went back into the car...
mummy ask whether rinako can fetch me to school and after school dismiss...
then rinako says..
''aunty i can fetch to school but I cannot fetch her back because I have tuition till 5''
you know what mummy say...
she say
''oh then never mind let her go back by rapid or what''
then i end up with coming back home with baby ass ass and wei sheng with sapu...
what is this...
Is this what you want mummy??
tell me...
I'll find my way...

Mummy you really don't have to repeat the wrong things that daddy done to us again and again..
I clearly know what he have done..
I clearly understand your pain...but do you know how pain am I inside???
Do you know how much time I take to accept my daddy is walking towards the wrong path??
Do you know how sad am I to know that Daddy leave this family for another woman outside??
Do you understand how I feel??
Do you know what i'm wishing and what I'm thinking about...
You do not know...mummy...
Everytime when things happen...you like to say...
You understand me soooo much...actually you dont...please accept the fact that you dont understand me...
You just know a broken family brings terrible disaster to us...
but...
do you know what i want...
I just want peace...
I really don't feel happy everytime when you let me see those messages that you have send or receive from daddy...
I really don't know why things go so wrong...
now...
you are always hanging up with ur favourite friend...
day and night...discussing about ur secretzz...
even when me and bro go out with you, you have to call her...
when we show we are unhappy with her...you want us to accept her because she could help you..
what is this I dont want to know...
even my family time...a friend of yours also have to come and ka-ka-cau-cau...
aaaaaaaaaa........
even when i want to go into your room,
also i have to beg u for so long to ask you to open the door because you are on the phone with her...
do you know that feeling when a part of your mum is to somebody u dun really like??

and now we are having cold war...
my friends say that i have to try to tolerance and talk to you as u r a mother..
but i really cant find my reason..
everytime is also me to talk to you first...
what's the point for talking to you...when you don't even know you are also wrong too...
and you think all of this is my fault..????

I feel so lonely...
I wanna run away from home...
I dun wanna stay in a hell like this...

XxpRincesSxX
5.39pm
5/5/08